Two days until warped tour. c:  
I also would like to start writing letters to people soon so if you’d like me to send you one, message me your address. c: 

It’s nice being able to put things behind you. Put people in your past and move on. It will only go up from here.

My puppy is being put to sleep within the next week. My parents got a place that doesn’t allow dogs and he’s a chihuahua, so it’s in his nature to be protective and they typically can only live with a single family in their lives. He doesn’t like anybody but us. So he can’t go to other people. He bites. Hart won’t take him. I don’t know how to feel about it. I’ve barely cried because I’ve just been around so many people the past couple of days and I hate crying in front of people. I’m going to miss him waiting for me to come home and greeting me at the door every day when I walk in. It just seems surreal right now. Like I haven’t actually thought about it. I’m going on and on about a dog, but we’re just close. I’ve had him most of my life. He sleeps in my bed every night. He always has. When I am at home, he is always at my side. He keeps me company, though he is just a dog. But life goes on. It happens every day. Putting my feelings to the side, I’m also upset for him. I’m not going with when they do it, I couldn’t. But he gets scared. And I know he’ll be really scared while he’s there. His last hour will be pure stress and worry. This makes me somewhat glad that dogs aren’t capable of thinking the way that humans can. I hope he can’t question why. I just don’t know when we should do it. We’re moving into our new place on the 15th. It has to be before then. He gets stressed when we pack anything so I don’t know if I should do it now and get it over with so he isn’t filled with worry, or keep him until the last possible day. I’m supposed to pick the day. But it’s difficult. They gave me three options. 
1) to take his body and bury him and have our own funeral. 2) have him cremated and spread somewhere by the vet. 3) have him cremated and keep the remains. I chose the third one. I wouldn’t want to leave him here when we move. And I wouldn’t want to leave him behind somewhere. So I’m going to take him with. I see myself creepily bringing him places. But I’d rather have that than nothing. I’ve been spending as much time with him as possible lately. I hate how he is oblivious, but at the same time I’m glad. I hate that he won’t be here two weeks from now and he doesn’t know it, but at the same time I’m glad he can’t know. It’s just going to hit me really hard. But that’s life I guess. I know things have been good for him and that he’ll always be with me still. He’s my baby.

I’m both happy and sad. 

Pros of moving:

• seeing friends often
• always having things to do
• new house/change 
• being in a bigger city
• seeing people I love
• new school, new people

Cons of moving:

• new house does not allow pets so I have to put my puppy to sleep, who has been my companion for most of my life. 
• stress

They about equal out because I love my dog. But life goes on.

Ok so just a random thought. I hate how guys get pissy when their girlfriends get upset about them finding another girl pretty. Maybe it’s something they don’t understand? But I don’t know. We’re already so insecure as it is, especially to significant others. I understand that obviously guys are going to find girls other than their girlfriends attractive, it’s the same with girls and other guys, it’s natural and normal, but it doesn’t mean you have to act on it. This isn’t about me, it just irks me to see guys flirt with other girls and then get defensive and say their girl is overreacting when she gets mad. No it isn’t wrong to find another person attractive, but yes it is inappropriate to tell them how good looking they are while you’re committed to somebody else. Even if you don’t think it would affect you if your significant other did it, I think that could upset somebody a lot. There’s so much pressure to be good enough. And when you make it known that you find another girl beautiful, yeah your girlfriend is going to assume your eyes are on other girls and not her. So think of your girlfriend/boyfriends feelings for once. keep things like that to yourself. ok.

(Source: allwhitewolves)