One of the only decent photos I took this weekend.
Two days until warped tour. c:
I also would like to start writing letters to people soon so if you’d like me to send you one, message me your address. c:
It’s nice being able to put things behind you. Put people in your past and move on. It will only go up from here.
My puppy is being put to sleep within the next week. My parents got a place that doesn’t allow dogs and he’s a chihuahua, so it’s in his nature to be protective and they typically can only live with a single family in their lives. He doesn’t like anybody but us. So he can’t go to other people. He bites. Hart won’t take him. I don’t know how to feel about it. I’ve barely cried because I’ve just been around so many people the past couple of days and I hate crying in front of people. I’m going to miss him waiting for me to come home and greeting me at the door every day when I walk in. It just seems surreal right now. Like I haven’t actually thought about it. I’m going on and on about a dog, but we’re just close. I’ve had him most of my life. He sleeps in my bed every night. He always has. When I am at home, he is always at my side. He keeps me company, though he is just a dog. But life goes on. It happens every day. Putting my feelings to the side, I’m also upset for him. I’m not going with when they do it, I couldn’t. But he gets scared. And I know he’ll be really scared while he’s there. His last hour will be pure stress and worry. This makes me somewhat glad that dogs aren’t capable of thinking the way that humans can. I hope he can’t question why. I just don’t know when we should do it. We’re moving into our new place on the 15th. It has to be before then. He gets stressed when we pack anything so I don’t know if I should do it now and get it over with so he isn’t filled with worry, or keep him until the last possible day. I’m supposed to pick the day. But it’s difficult. They gave me three options.
1) to take his body and bury him and have our own funeral. 2) have him cremated and spread somewhere by the vet. 3) have him cremated and keep the remains. I chose the third one. I wouldn’t want to leave him here when we move. And I wouldn’t want to leave him behind somewhere. So I’m going to take him with. I see myself creepily bringing him places. But I’d rather have that than nothing. I’ve been spending as much time with him as possible lately. I hate how he is oblivious, but at the same time I’m glad. I hate that he won’t be here two weeks from now and he doesn’t know it, but at the same time I’m glad he can’t know. It’s just going to hit me really hard. But that’s life I guess. I know things have been good for him and that he’ll always be with me still. He’s my baby.
I’m both happy and sad.
Pros of moving:
Cons of moving:
They about equal out because I love my dog. But life goes on.
Ok so just a random thought. I hate how guys get pissy when their girlfriends get upset about them finding another girl pretty. Maybe it’s something they don’t understand? But I don’t know. We’re already so insecure as it is, especially to significant others. I understand that obviously guys are going to find girls other than their girlfriends attractive, it’s the same with girls and other guys, it’s natural and normal, but it doesn’t mean you have to act on it. This isn’t about me, it just irks me to see guys flirt with other girls and then get defensive and say their girl is overreacting when she gets mad. No it isn’t wrong to find another person attractive, but yes it is inappropriate to tell them how good looking they are while you’re committed to somebody else. Even if you don’t think it would affect you if your significant other did it, I think that could upset somebody a lot. There’s so much pressure to be good enough. And when you make it known that you find another girl beautiful, yeah your girlfriend is going to assume your eyes are on other girls and not her. So think of your girlfriend/boyfriends feelings for once. keep things like that to yourself. ok.
BOLD WHAT’S TRUE
I am a cuddler.
I am a morning person.
I am an only child.
I am currently in my pajamas.
I am currently pregnant.
I am left handed.
I am a little shy around the opposite gender at first.
I bite my nails.
I can be paranoid at times.
I enjoy country music.
I enjoy smoothies.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I have a car.
I have/had a hard time paying attention at school.
I have a hidden talent.
I have a pet.
I have a tendency to fall for the “wrong” guy/girl.
I have all my grandparents.
I have been to another country.
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
I have or had broken a bone.
I have caller I.D. on my phone.
I have bathed someone.
I have changed a diaper.
I have changed a lot over the past year.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have had major/minor surgery.
I have killed another person.
I have had my hair cut within the last week.
I have mood swings.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I have rejected someone before.
I like the taste of blood.
I love Michael Jackson.
I love sleeping.
I love to shop.
I own 100 CDs or more.
I own and use a library card.
I read books for pleasure in my spare time.
I sleep a lot during the day.
I strongly dislike math.
I was born in a country other than the US.
I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
I work at a job that I enjoy.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I am currently wearing socks.
I am tired.
I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt.
I consume at least one alchoholic drink every month.
Graduated high school.
Rode every ride at an amusement park
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a concert.
Spun turn tables.
Watched four movies in one night.
Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over £200 in one day.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
Fired a gun.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to Sea World.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Taken a taxi.
Had more than 5 online conversations going at once.
Had a hamster.
Dyed your hair.
Had something pierced.
Got straight A’s.
Your parents sent you to a shrink.
My hair is naturally the color ___.
My eyes are ___.
A combination of things
I am a ___.
People sometimes label me as ___, even though I don’t really care.
My longest relationship was ___. (including on and off relationships)
1 month or less
Two years or more
I’ve never been in a real relationship.
Some of my biggest fears are ___.
Being alone in the dark
Oceans/large bodies of water
I have ___.
A friend with benefits
A computer in my room
A television in my room
My own car
Married parents… unfortunately.